here lies two poems by Juliette Sebock

*TW/CW: suicidal ideation*

I wish I could go back to college but I also wish I never had

I wish I could go back to college

because my best friends were approximately

49 seconds


4.9 minutes

away from where I sat in bed.

I wish I'd never gone to college

because I'm pretty sure I'll be

paying back loans

long after I'm


I wish I could go back to college

because class with a

particularly attractive professor

was reason enough

to get out of bed.

I wish I'd never gone to college

because another man


made me wish

that I

(or he)

were dead.

*TW/CW: PTSD/flashbacks to domestic violence/sexual abuse*

Apocalyptic Aftershocks

Every time I think of you—flashback,

the world goes black—it's like the world ends

all over again, like an REM song

stuck in my head, not feeling fine, reminding

me that you're still somewhere,

even if that somewhere isn't

ruining my life.

I've built up my Gilead,

balm for wounds deep in my chest, in my head,

until I lie in bed, close my eyes, and feel it

starting, the world ending,



all over again.

Juliette Sebock is the author of Mistakes Were Made and has work forthcoming or appearing in a wide variety of publications. She is the founding editor of Nightingale & Sparrow, runs a lifestyle blog, For the Sake of Good Taste, and is a regular contributor with Marias at Sampaguitas. Currently, she is curating the Screaming from the Silence anthology series and working on a variety of personal and freelance projects. When she isn't writing (and sometimes when she is), she can be found with a cup of coffee and her cat, Fitz. Juliette can be reached on her website or across social media.

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